to hold a heart

i’d never thought

that there would come a day that i’d be the heartbreaker

i knew i held that boy’s heart in my hands

and yet, in my insecurity

held it tighter and tighter until

palm became fist

and my hands were bloodstained

even then, i didn’t want to let him go

but because of that

i held on too tight

because of that

i let go too late

i’m sorry i am ruined and i hold on too tight

but my love suffocated him

til he broke, too.