i just wanted you here

his memory

echoes through

my hollow chest,

reminds me of

the emptiness

we used to share together-

killing ourselves with each other-

you were one of my kind

the words

used to fill my head-

you slitting all my precious lines

me begging you to sip the blood

i bled

i can picture you calling me

those words again-

pretentious cynic-

but still i let you in

i didn't mind

a motherfucking

catcher in the rye,

i could never

keep my eyes off you anyway

radiohead

carved into my veins

remember when i tried to memorize the lines just to

keep you sane?

these hands

just wanted to be yours

i would've ripped my skin if it meant you would've let me in-

opened all your doors

picked my heart up off the floor

fucked me in the corridor

filled me to my very core-

i would've let you be my god

even though you tried to convince me

you weren't heaven

denied me three times

but i still tried to get in

tell me

if that isn't proof

what the fuck

did i have to do

to make myself clear?