Son Of A Unknown Father.

I was a little boy that knew who his father and talked to him every other day on the phone but still felt that I was abandoned by him.

He’ll visit sometimes but I was about one or four about that time.

So even though I knew my father I never had that father figure in my life.

Even though I knew who he was I never had him to teach me how to fish, or how to ride a bike, or play sports.

My cousin and uncles had to teach me and some I learned on my owe.

My father never came to see me play sports even after I told him the time and date.

My father never gave me them talks about whats right or wrong nor did he tell how to be a men and how to respect a woman or talk to one things I had to learn on my own.

When I needed my father the most he wasn’t around to help.

People thought I was going to be gay because all I played with was girls but that was all I had. I didn’t know anybody I was young.

Even my own Mama though I was gonna be gay.

My father never came to my elementary graduation nor my eighth grade graduation and I called and told him to come.

I might know my father but I never had them dad and son moments.

So even I though I knew who my dad was I still don’t know him as a person.

I don’t even how he was raised nor do I even know my own grandparents even till this day I don’t know him or them R.I.H to both of them.

Thats why I acted the way I act because growing up without your father as a young boy into a grown men really changes you as a men.

My father never even wanted me he wanted to get an abortion.

Thats why sometimes I have mixed emotions and start being antisocial because even though its the past that pain still rides with you through your life.

So I might know my father but im still fatherless.

-Victor Quashie