Deeply held belief

Anyone that is caring and has a desire to help others, captures a narcissists attention. You give, they take. It’s a match made in heaven hell. This narcissistic love is at times confusing and forceful. Understanding this sanity includes comprehending the actions of a narcissistic lover. Furthermore this narcissist person is very egoistic. Unfortunately I was being dragged into this deeply held belief that we so call love or at least we sleep on the thought of it being called that, when it’s most definitely not.

When you truly love someone you don’t manifest hate towards them. That’s healthy unconditional love. It’s something narcissists aren't familiar with. In this case the father was the narcissistic person while the mother and the children suffered from the narcissistic love. Suddenly getting to visually experience violent scenes, made me feel weak and tender .

My father was the unconditional narcissist lover. I wanted to hate my mother for accepting all of this nonsense in her life for years. But I couldn’t. I wouldn’t . I can’t hate her . I loved her. As I sat back and lit up all of the letters on fire that I had received from him. I had never looked back.

Narcissists decided to take advantage of my father this caused him to act aggressively. They were both blinded by this so called narcissistic love. A horrifying prisoned type of love. Insanity in my pulses still pump as my heart races fast and i remember the blood that dripped down my mother's forehead. Being dragged into this deeply held belief that we so call love or at least we sleep on the thought of it being called that, when it’s most definitely not. I will always believe that narcissistic love is present out in the world waiting to demolish someone else.