It Shall Be Alright..

You are going to be fine. I want the universe to tell me this. Sometimes I feel lost and so very afraid. I try to hide my fear in mantras and prayer and sometimes it works. But in the middle of the night, when I can no longer push aside my demons, I can hear the fear coiling in my heart, like tendrils choking my heart. Sometimes it feels like I do not have a clear life plan... I know the things I want, a family, to get married, to own a house, to finally be debt free.. but the how is a cloudy, often misty path that is not always well defined. Sometimes it feels like everyone else has uncovered a secret, their lives seem so smooth and everything seems to have fallen into place while I just feel like I'm flailing in water, often struggling to remain afloat. Some days I manage to hold on to my prayers long enough to convince myself that it shall all be well..my path is undefined but it does not mean that I am behind. I even manage to feel that yes, life is not a race and I will get there, wherever there is, at the right time as this is what is always told..The universe has the answer, just wait. But most times, it feels like I wish the universe would give me a concrete sign, an indication that everything really will be alright. That everything that has happened really was for a reason. That every heartbreak, every sliver of happiness, every tear, every friendship, every relationship was meant to be even if it was not...I'm waiting universe, please tell me that everything will be alright...