The Stress of Despair
I woke today, I hate me.
I see nothing in my life but need.
There’s so much despicable loathing inside,
I want to run, but there’s nowhere to hide.
The only answer I can find
Is to separate and leave me behind.
The minute I detach from me,
I know immediately, I’m not free.
Despair brings nothing but emptiness, that’s true,
and the chaos surrounding me isn’t new.
My feelings are buried way deep down,
my soul has become numb and my ears hear no sound.
No matter how fast or far I run
I cannot escape dark because there is no sun.
The answers I seek are all gone.
There isn’t anything left but a despondent song.
In one last act of desperation,
I scream in agony at the deprivation
and the torturous life that’s been my curse.
It’s the same song, just another verse.
I strike at the darkness, suffocating and dense,
thinking all along it makes no sense.
I know there’s a God who dwells high above
the hatred with a desire to spread His love.
This God is all-powerful and wise,
To see such distress comes as a surprise.
He can wipe out all this evil and hatred
without exerting even, a single breath.
With one imperceptible wave of His hand
He can remove the misery from this land.
So, if that is the truth, and I know it is,
why does He wait? The answer is His.
The longer He tarry’s the worse people get,
and the worse it gets, the more tired I am, yet
sleep is an issue; no not sleep. It’s rest.
I lay down in slumber but wake in jest.
Once again, I drag my bone-weary self
out of the comfort of bed and delve
into another cold, dark, dreary day
with nothing but sorrowful words to say.
The agony of life will continue on
until the time the world is gone.
Or maybe not the world at all,
But for me alone my God will call.
When that day comes one way or the other
The answers I’ve sought so hard to discover
will be discarded so far away
because it’s the dawning of a new and better day!
#Aspire2Accept