friendships
alone.
It’s dark and cold
But the worst part isn’t that I’m alone
It’s that everybody else isn’t
They stare at me and whisper into each other ears
They point and laugh
They huddle together so I can’t read their lips
They make sure I’m alone
I hate being alone.
I grab onto others just to make sure they stay
Sometimes I don’t care who
I just want to make sure that I’ll be the one who’s okay
I’m selfish.
But it feels like it’s the only way I can survive
I tell myself that they’ll stay
But each time it’s always another lie
I hold on tight
Gripping them tighter and tighter
Until I feel something slipping,
Cracking,
Beneath my fingers
I can’t let go
But it’s too hard holding on
The cracks cut my skin
Leaving scars that have been there all along
They’ll leave me
I know they will
And then I’ll be back where I started
Back
All
alone.