shadow

all of our our good memories

i still remeber them

rather fondly

all the times we laughed

the times we cried

the times where you and i lied

the times we fought

the times i though i lost you

it was all fun

yet on the long run

reality caught up to me

she oh so kindly

reminded me

that you were long gone

you left me long ago

yet i still lived with your shadow

forgot you're no longer there

i maybe wasn't aware or i chose to deny

so that i wouldn't be hurt

so that i wouldn't cry

try to join you

they said to me

why you're still holding onto all

so obsessively

i told them this place is full of traces

and memories

but i'm lying

i resisted and still resisting

so i'm imagining all

as a way of coping

but there was no trace

he even existed