I can’t feel anything (I just want to feel)

Why do

my emotions

keep

drifting away?

(I want them to stay.)

But when I grasp at them

they always deflate...

(I want to feel featherweight.)

They

always seem

to pop...

(I want this all to stop).

I keep trying

but these

feelings

keep dying.

(I want to be flying).

These balloons of emotions

make me feel

nothing

but dead.

When will this fucking end?