Addiction Versus Recovery

I used to think that drugs and alcohol could solve all my problems, even if I didn't have any. I would use on any occasion. I didn't care how I felt, what was important, or not important. I used if I was happy, sad, mad, etc.I just knew that drugs and alcohol were my antidote to life.

If you asked me what was going on, I would give you a simple response and tell you nothing. But, I seemed to be slipping deeper and deeper into a darker hole than most. I'm so stuck that I'm losing everything. My friends. My career. My family.

Little did I know that it was deeper than that. I used to cover up childhood trama. I can cry right now because I was hoping that using would make the pain go away. It didn't and it won't.

I had work to do. It's easy not to use but it's harder to do self work. It takes courage to decide that it's your life and that you are in control. Once upon a time drugs were my antidote for everything. Now that I’m clean, I love to write about how my drug addiction changed my life. That's my antidote.