this isnt gonna be eloquent im sorry i cant do eloquent these days

You know what I am angry about? People can't ever seem to see how amazing they are. Self deprecation is so common and it seems to be everywhere I look, and it makes me mad. Maybe not so much mad as just sad. These amazing humans impact me so much every day, and yet they refuse to accept the beauty I see in them.

I'm pretty forceful about this. Whenever my friends self deprecate I do my best to point out some of their amazing things that make them beautiful, but that's all I can do. I feel so helpless, useless to open their eyes to themselves.

I must tell you, though, that I am being hypocritical. I have a hard time seeing my own worth and my own reason for being alive.

I think one reason I care so much about other people finding their worth is because I cant find mine, and I find some purpose in helping them see theirs. This also makes me mad, as I feel my motives for loving people are selfish.

yeah.

Guys, Please love yourself. I dont know whatever you have in your brain that keeps you from doing it, but I know this. You deserve love. You deserve to feel good about who you are. You have made mistakes, but so has everyone else. Mistakes make you human. They teach you, and they make you beautiful.

Maybe you feel useless and like no one notices you, but let me tell you. I believe it is impossible to go through this life without making a difference in someone's life. You know that one person who borrowed a pencil from you three weeks ago? They probably feel so greatful that they found someone to give them one. It's NERVEWRACKING to look for pencils! You know that guy who you smiled at in the hallway a month ago? Maybe he was having an awful day and he needed that smile. You know that persuasive essay you wrote? It was so impactful that your teacher spent all night thinking about it.

You are seen. Someone loves you. Many people love you. You are worth it. You are Valid. Your problems are valid, and you shouldnt feel ashamed for having them. If you ever need to rant about anything, feel free to ping me and I will listen. Talking feels good.

You deserve love, just as much as anyone. You are beautiful, and you are human.

Please, try. Try to love yourself.

I'll be trying right with you.