meh.

I honestly really, really don’t know.

(I'm a girl btw.)

I used to think I like badass guys, but now I don’t know if I like cute dorky guys.

Like, I would consider myself more on the badass but lazy side (don’t judge) but the thing is yin and yang, something like opposites attract. My mom is, well, more of a fiery and serious person, while my dad, more patient and all but funny. That happened with my grandparents as well so yeah.

I used to crush on this random guy that was pretty cool, like into soccer and all. (I think I have a thing for jocks ’cause I can actually relate?) He was nice and all...until he started bullying this girl for liking him. Honestly, I still liked him, but that woke me up to see that his personality probably wasn’t what I wanted in a guy. A

After that, I started liking another guy (not immediately after). He was really nice, like really nice, kinda socially awkward but a legit gentleman. He was also a sportzy person and he did sailing and all. So I liked him and all.

PROBLEM IS....I'M A TSUNDERE if you know what I mean so that basically means I'm the kind of person who bullies a guy I liked.

So I sat beside him in class, and 80% of the time, I was, well, "bullying" him. Don't judge me, people in my school had this thing called zapping, where you put all your fingers together, and jab it into someone's side or stomach (best spot above the ribcage) and I was really good to it, while kinda being immune to it. So every day, hahaha, I would zap that guy, who because of his lack of fat (legitly, he had a giddy six-pack...I mean WHAT), had a serious sensitivity problem when it comes to zapping. Lmao, I slapped him several times before (not proud of it, not embarrassed of it either) because he was annoying (there was once his glasses flew, yes I said flew, off because I slapped him...this one, I'm proud of). But still, though, he was really nice, and somehow tolerated my annoyingness.

So what's my ideal type?

Still don't know, but probably a guy with a certain amount of looks, smarter than me (street smarter or book smarter, either one), who is a jock (that's for sure), with good moral and values, and MORAL COURAGE AND HONESTY. (those 2 are the things I value most, for myself, so yeah, that's it :)

one more thing, I think I want a guy brave enough to admit he likes flowers:)