I’m sorry

Dear Gina,

What can I say? No, seriously, what? “I’m sorry” isn’t going to cut it, I know.

Still, I’m sorry. You deserve so much better than I can give you, than I’ve ever given you. I hope you know how incredible you are, and that you deserve the world. None of this was ever your fault. If you take nothing else away from this letter, just know that you never did anything wrong. All of the blame goes to me.

You’re probably wondering why I’m writing this to you. Cat would just rip it up as soon as she knew who it was from, and Freya has made her stance pretty clear. Besides, you were the one in the group who had stood by me no matter what, and realising that I hurt you was probably the hardest part of the whole thing. Not that any part of it was easy.

I could explain my reasoning behind it all, but that’s not what this is about. It’s just me saying I’m sorry, and that I hope you have an amazing life. I don’t know if I have the right to call you my squish anymore, but that doesn’t mean I care about you any less.

I’m not trying to get back into your life. Like I said, you deserve so much better than anything I can give you. I just need you to know that I never hated you, or even disliked you at all. Not for a second.

Goodbye,

Alex