why I write

Maybe I write so the thoughts don't kill me -

sinking in quicksand

drowning in feelings.

Maybe I write so it hurts less -

this aching in my chest

reliving these memories over and over again.

But maybe I write for you, not me -

hoping one day you'll find something I wrote

and think of me

and wish it had ended differently.

Maybe I hope that somehow you'll change your mind and come back,

or maybe I just want you to feel guilty for all the pain you caused me.