My Head

What keeps me awake at night,

Are the one who keeps me alive on daytime.

It created the most beautiful thing when the sun shine so bright,

Yet bring flow of tears when the whisper of twilight descend and the moon is my only company.

There's a laughter, the smile, the happiness and the promises on every minutes of it,

But broken glass, streams of blood, and terror of regrets will always come to haunt it by then.

What keeps me awake at night,

Are the people that i see on daytime with heart full of love,

But they all left me at the end and i need to make it through night by night by myself.

It keeps me awake at night, because, somehow,

I thought they will be there for me.

But here i'am,

Drink my self out,

Cry myself a river,

Hugging myself a little bit tighter,

Reminding myself that it will be alright,

When the daytime comes i will be alright.

But alas,

The demons always win sometimes,

And when the clock strikes past midnight,

It's a new whole of a party started,

For the Dreamer,

The Hater,

The Drunker,

The Prayer,

and me.

Hoping to grasp another reality, a new set of hope.

To live it through the night because,

What keeps me awake at night,

Are the ones who kills me slowly , be there and hurting me.

By that, i need to keep it awake at night,

Because if i'm not, the night will win and i will lose myself completely.