Laughter
Your eyes glint in the darkness, glossy lips parting as you whisper simple nothings.
I was a kid then, too lost in my own head to understand how much that moment would come to mean to me.
Your jokes were so childish,
and yet, as you held a stuffed rabbit up to my flashlight, making his shadow dance across your ceiling,
it was as if I was laughing for the first time.
I couldn't breathe when I rolled across your bedspread, hiccuping with giggles as tears streaked my face, wrapping you in a fierce, desperate hug.
I don't think I'll laugh that hard again.
It was not that your joke was particularly funny.
I suppose the tears were born of relief more than comedy.
Relief that I could still smile after all that had happened.
After the tears I never let you see.
The ones that scar my cheeks even now.
Thank you.
I scrawl here what I am too ashamed to tell you in person-
you saved me when I could not save myself.