Lumos and Tyrant

The said I was weak. They said I was arrogant. They said I was nothing more that a nerd with a knack for being annoying.

But do they know what's really annoying? Having people doubt yoy just because you give yourself to the world. Now, things are going to change. I am going to give the world to myself.

Do you know what else is annoying? Having little people in your mind who argue all the time. I hate it. I hate them. They always blame me for everything. "The reason no one likes you is because your unlikable!" "You can't even get your grammar right! It's becuase you're unlikeable!"

So, I tried to erease them from my head. I ignored them, I let them ramble, until they faded. At least, I thought they fated, but nooooo, fate decided to be cruel and make those voices their own person.

A person whom everyone finds perfect- because it is not me. Fate stripped everything good about me to any empty shell, and left me with my faults. How can you say the universe in not against me?

That was the day Lumos was born. I hate Lumos with every ounce of my being. She got a Latin name, the name of a Harry Potter spell, and I got stuck with names like "failure" "brat" and "tyrant." She got the blonde part of my hair; pale blonde with red highlights, while I got a light, dull brown that the sun will not bleach. She got bright blue eyes sparkling with joy and laughter, while I got dull blue-gray eyes void of everything that is not rage, jealousy, fear and just plain exostion, that can be seen clearly in the dark semi-circles under my eyes. The semi-circles that remind me about nights where I muffle my cries into my pillows for the self-loathing they thrust upon me. She got tan skin, friends, heck, even fan clubs! I got pale skin, enimies, and "Let's Destroy EvelynDawn" clubs. She is perfect- smart, kind, loved, brave... the list goes on and on. Lumos has "the heart of a Hufflepuff" "the mind of a Slytherclaw" and "the life of a Gryffindor." I have "the heart of a monster" "the mind of a desperate nerd" and "the life of an outcast."

She took everything from me, and is rewardered for it! I tried to take it back and now I'm stuck behind bars! I hate every one of these people! I hate them, I hate them, I hate them!