idle mind

Grandma fell asleep again,

making those loud noises like a volcano

I walk up to her chair and pull on her hair,

but she won’t wake up

I breathe out loudly through my mouth,

And my eyes catch onto the open screen door

I shuffle towards it,

push my shoulder against one end,

And make the space wider

Standing on the deck,

I look at the shimmering pool

And pull my shirt over my head

My feet are already bare and dirty

Like my naked legs, my thoughts are running

I want to try and breathe water

So I can move to the ocean

And swim with the fishes

I want to float or fly,

Like I’m way up in the sky,

So I can look down at all the people

I’m still running

And then my legs touch air,

And then my toes touch liquid,

And then I’m under,

Flying through the water

I’m drowning

And Grandma’s still sleeping.