Cold Cleansing

It doesn't hit often, this feeling I get

but when it does, it's like its making

up for lost time...

This feeling of helplessness

of being so empty that you

can't love yourself

and then it hits,

these unjustifiable tears

that pour like

a faucet

draining...

and after

when your eyes

are husks and the

winds begins to take them

the only feeling is this empiness

that still consumes you and you feel

unloved and unworthy of the love people

have for you that you can't seem to feel

anymore, try as you might every step is leaden

which contadicts how you feel so you sleep

and when two or three days go by with no rest

from these induced emotional slumbers, you get up

and turn the shower on and the cold water feels

so good from the heat and salt of your eyes

that you almost cry tears of happiness

from the emptiness that is washing

away down your face and into the

drain...

And you look at yourself as the scent of

soap and water fill your senses giving

you hope, hope that this feeling

doesn't come again at least

for a while

and you

want to

start

a new....

from the cold cleansing