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it’s me again.

“What do you want from me?”, she asked me.

“I tried, I really tried to leave, but every time something tells me to turn around.”, I said.

“So you’re here again.”

“Yes, I’m here again.”

“For how long this time?”

“Oh, I have no idea. It depends.”, I said uncertainly.

“Depends on what?”

“On whether someone will tear down the wall.”

“My dear, we both know that this is not the case.”, she smiled.

“No?”

“No. The wall has been torn down many times. And you ... you extended a leg out of it few times ... maybe not a leg ... more a finger ...”

“And?”

“And nothing. As I said, it’s not about tearing the wall, but about crossing what’s left of it.”

“I crossed it once ...”, I said sadly.

“You thought you did but it was just a stumble.”

“So, what now?”

“We are waiting.”, she sighed.

“Will you wait with me?”

“Of course.”

“You know, I’d like to leave but ...”

“Yes yes, I know. But you are afraid.”, she interrupted me.“One would think that it’s me who you should be afraid of.”

“You’re not that bad.”, I said faintly.

“You’re saying it now because you’ve missed me. A bit more and you’ll change your mind.”

“You’re probably right. Still, it’s good to know that you’re not moving anywhere from here, that you always wait for me.”

“Well I’m nothing without you. I can’t exist without you. Where else would I go?”, she asked harshly.

“I don’t know.”

“Anyway, how do you feel?”

“How can I feel being here with you?”, I gave her dirty look.

“Right.”

“But I don’t lose hope.”

“Oh, for heaven’s sake!”, she cried out.“Hope! Favorite slogan of people who are not capable of facing the reality.”

“You sound bitter.”

“I’m sorry, should I be stroking your head?”, she rolled her eyes.

“No, but a little sympathy would not hurt.”

“I sympathize with you like no one does.”

“Tell me, do you feel sorry for me?”, I asked her after a moment of silence.

“No.”

“Do you pity me?”

“Why, no!”, she laughed.

“Then why am I here with you?”

“Who on earth would you be with if not with me?”

I became silent.

Loneliness gave me a triumphant smile.