worth the wait

am i worth the wait?

i read stories,

of star-crossed lovers.

two people

one heart.

two lives

one love.

after searching for a long time

i found someone who gave me hope.

he was different

something that i could fall in love with.

but after so many years of searching,

after finally finding an option,

i began to ask a different question.

not who would love me

but how?

i know that i am difficult to love.

it would take a lot of persuasion and waiting.

i am difficult to love.

am i worth the wait?

as tears stream down my face in the dark

the hum of the car speeding through the night,

i finally realized i was the problem.

that i am too difficult to love.

and after a while of constantly fighting for my trust,

they will leave.

just like the first time.

because i am too difficult to love

and not worth the wait.