Deep pain

Grasping my throat

Slowing my breath

Yet teases at the possibility

Maybe I deserve this

All this hurt

All this loneliness deep inside me

Tears me apart

Puts me together

Shards glued by string

Ready to be torn

I’m holding it together

Just barely surviving

Not living

Just surviving

Pain runs down my body

The ache grows deeper

The hold grows tighter

I can’t breathe