Silent Scream

Staring at the ceiling contemplating my demise

My mom walks into the room calling me a failure and reminding me how I am nothing like my sister, her favorite child

My sister isn't stressed and she isn't going to college in the Fall

But somehow my mom finds a way to make me feel like the lowest human scum,

even though I will be the first child to graduate high school

As our mother-daughter rlationship deteriorates, I can see that she never cared about my struggles

She never cared about my happiness, she only ever cared about my sister

And no matter how loud I screamed for help from the one person I thought would help me, she never heard a sound

She was too busy bettering the life of my youger sister instead of helping me overcome the trials in my life

She left me to drown in my sea of despair while she cooked dinner with her favorite child

I had to crawl out of my darkness alone, without the help of even my mother

I hope I never have to see her again

She hurt me greatly, I can never return to my old joyful self

I will be a bitter yet reserved being that lives on the edge of society

I am better because of my will to survive

My mother refused to hear those screams

And now our relationship is non-existent