Little Mermaid

Violet color is the field of lavender, I see a little girl wearing a happy round-rimmed hat, running down the field of lavender. This is the color of lavender, the color that brings me great comfort and healing… It also has a tint of sorrowful feelings.

It is the old story that lingered many years in my Childhood memory ever since the first time I heard. I forgot when I heard it the first, but I felt that I probably knew it for a long long time. The story about the daughter of the ocean, the little mermaid, who once fell deeply in love with a prince. But in order to have a chance to see and get closer to the prince, she needed to make some sacrifice. She sacrificed her voice, in order to exchange for a knife. The knife to cut and trim her tail fin, so that her tail could be turned into human-like feet. She made it, she finally make it to the human realm. Even though with her longing eyes, she did win the prince’s attention, but without a human-voice, she could never be able to let him heard her inner longing voice of love for him. And at the night of the prince’s wedding, broken-heartedly, she jumped back into the ocean, turned into foams of the ocean waters. Some time I can imagine the pain that she must have been enduring through, the eagerness of letting people hearing the voice of her soul… and the pain of unable to express herself and communicate, unable to be social and interacting with the human world.

But in order to be able to make it to another atmosphere, I, too, had made some very similar sacrifice. Flew to a new land, left my motherland behind… Chasing after some unrealistic dreams from the past. Often time, have the similar feeling of unable to let people hear the inner tender voice of mine... feeling the throat being choked, and suddenly become frozen, wordless, just standing there, observing the world in an ultimate sorrowful way... only wishing that one day, I could let the voice be heard again.

But I sometimes, also felt that there should be a different ending for the story too. The little mermaid is back to her homeland again. Being healed and rejuvenated by all the loving cares from her families and friends. And with all the loving tender care, she, too, can bring her whole family back to the other world, the one that she once loved so immensely, traveled such a long way… and with the modern technology, that even telepathic-communication become possible, her mermaid kinds of language can be translated into human words as well. Finally, her voice can be heard, her wish can become true at last. She is able to show human-beings how to care and listen to all the tender little sounds and languages from all other nature-creatures as well. Because even though some voices are small, they are still there, as long as we, human-beings are attentive, them, too, can be heard.

I learned that in the old days Violet purple is exacted from deep sea creatures… It must be the true essence of the ocean, where all the deep tender feelings and love are all stored in, and with this love, any wound can be healed, even the little mermaid's broken-heart can be healed too.. cause she is finally home again.