The message caught me off guard. "Can we talk?"

I replied quickly with a yes, partially from the excitement of your return and partially because I had to keep the appearance that I wasn't mad. I meant it when I told you I'd never be mad at you, but my recently-found patience was running very very low. I greet you with a GIF, like usual, but I could tell something's wrong. I didn't mention it at first, mainly because I'm afraid to upset you. It leaks out little by little. Me mentioning you being depressed before triggered something, and it made you leave. That part I knew already. I've become good at seeing when you'll vanish before my eyes.

Though I didn't know how much you were hurting. I didn't know how long you'd been hurting. I could see it when you were running to drugs for some clarity. When you told me you overdosed, it pulled me back to tenth grade when a few of my friends kept overdosing because they'd rather be numb than alive. That was the start of my metamorphosis into the caring, patient person that people trust. I had to learn that judging them didn't help as much as listening did. I had to get used to hearing shit that I didn't want to and not reacting badly. In a matter of years, I had learned the art of swallowing my feelings for the sake of others. I only recently learned that that isn't healthy at all.

But, when you come back and tell me what happened, I'm sure you've wondered how I'm so understanding to everything. So, that's how. Always having people falling apart around me helped me know what to say and do when someone's coming apart at the seams. Though, as I've said before, I mean what I tell you. The whole love factor in all those relationships showed me that I eill go REALLY far for someone I care about as far as empathy and support go. Though typing the reason actually sounds sadder than it is, but that's why we don't dwell in the past. All that to say, I don't know why you left or what you're going through or if you're coming back, but I can tell you that I will be here with an assload of gifs and videos to make you laugh and forget all about whatever's been going on.