Nothing.

My sentence is waiting to be finished. My mind is waiting for my decision. My pen is waiting kill. Jasper or Cyprus? Who will be next to feel the peace that comes with death?

I choose Cyprus in hopes that I will feel something. But I feel just as I did when I killed Kate, Bryce, Josh, and many others; nothing.

I have brought these characters to life in books, and novels and yet as I kill them I feel nothing. The more characters I kill, the less I feel of any emotion. Sadness and grief feel like dystopian emotions. Happiness and joy feel like utopian emotions. The only emotion I feel-if it even counts as an emotion- is nothing. My characters feel nothing when I put an end to their life, and I feel just the same. Maybe I kill them on purpose just so I won’t feel any “dystopian” or “utopian” emotions. I don’t kill my characters to fulfill my desire of murder. I guess I kill them on purpose wanting to feel emotion but get relieved when I don’t.