spiraling

say it with me now

please

stay with me now

existence is pain

i am trapped inside my brain

all these thought inside my head

are driving me insane i am constantly afraid

afraid of my own shadow

afraid of who i became

afraid of who i should be

afraid that i might kill me

i can’t say what i’m feeling

it’s my breath that i’m stealing

my heads starting to spiral

this panics going viral

isolated with my thoughts and they start to get scary

digging up the gravestones of feelings that i burry

communications cutting out as the static’s creeping in

barricades of pain as the numbness starts again

sleeping isn’t working

the feelings that are lurking

are keeping me awake

i think that i might break

i don’t know how to tell you

the darkness that i go through

i can never let you see this

i’m drowning in the abyss

i feel like i am falling

my thoughts are now appalling

they bring bile to my throat

and i try to stay afloat

i’m trying hard to cope with the things inside my head

trying hard to cope with the fact that i was almost dead

what if i am just pathetic wish i had an anesthetic

what if i am not the same, there’s glass inside my brain

i can feel it breaking

my hands are softly shaking

i don’t think that im sane

there’s glass inside my brain.