all the things i should’ve said
dinnertime conversation
keeps killing us keeps killing
and i know you don't want to be here
but that's why you have to be here
swallowing down buttery rice grains
picking them out of your throat before bedtime
i can hear you coughing at 3am and
the microwave pushing this boy around this merry go round
we lost it in the deep
we lost you in the deep
asking things like
what is the right way to be happy
or eat dinner or speak to others or
how to grow around your holes be better do better because
learning from your mistakes is hard enough
without you making more and
it's easier to live without questioning if those 'mistakes' were really
mistakes in the first place
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