insanity

beep; white walls closing in from all sides

white clothes chained onto white beds

beep; white handle draining red from skin

sharp blade and rivers of deep crimson

shadows on the white walls i could see your haunted silhouette three years ago when i drowned in eyes made of heavenly poetry and darkness like raven feathers under moonlight and ink with flecks of gold and forgotten cities an hour before dawn that felt like another universe and a thousand sleepless nights later i dream of a death in your eyes

beep; slowly the world became dead silent

existing in the loudest echoing scream

beep; kaleidoscope of lights flashed around

conscious escaping this realm to cope

in breathless whispers all i’ve wanted in this short life was to worship your smile feeling late night drives in the sound of wind blowing against glass panes and endless sunsets of cold dreams painting the faded sky in a haze for you were an angel fallen in the rain and your smile was interwoven with empty glass bottles and enchanting secrets of the universe

beep; back to the immaculate white walls suffocating space

and i close my eyes wishing to disappear in these lights

beep; between the frozen air i wanted to feel something

fresh blood, more red, and more and more and more

shattered veins and i miss the sharpness of the metallic key engraved on my fingertips that tasted yours in a moment and i saw waves the color of moonlight through blue-stained glass crashing against rough granite cliffs creating carpets of white bubbles that bloomed without ever knowing your voice and the way it broke me but for you i would go insane

beep; it’s ok i understand

i’ll never be enough

bee– you’re just a girl

and so am i

i’ll be waiting even if forever would never be enough to paint constellations in the night sky and to dissolve my hollow being in rivers of tiffany blue as i memorize every part of your existence for even after my life became a blur all i knew was you so come find me at the end of the flatline and i promise i’ll be waiting for your response until the end of time

- deathetix