The Last Log
August 11, 2063, 3:13 A.M. Space-Time.
My dearest Hanhanbell,
If you ever get this message, it will be my last log. By then, I'm either with you, glistening in the oceans of laughter in unison, or I’m embarking on a long forever-journey to embrace the fate of my own demise.
Either way, I am glad to have known and loved you immensely. You have brought joy, mystery, and discovery into my life.
Before this recording stops and I run out of my last breath while dancing on the full moon, I’d like to say, I'm sorry. I’m sorry for all of my missteps.
I’m sorry for putting everything on your weary shoulders while I hid in the garage; you’ve supported all of my dreams, putting yours on hold; you kissed me good night, and slept on the couch next to me.
You made me sandwiches, a hot cup of coffee and even in the middle of those long nights, you woke me up and carried me upstairs to our king bed. I miss all of it terribly now.
I’m sorry for the failures of our unfulfilled hopes and dreams, and the broken promises; you can blame it all on me.
I should’ve put you first and most. All the time I had spent hiding away to find a way to another universe, I was chipping away so much quality time from us.
I just understood how selfish I’ve been. You deserved better than what I’d promised but never delivered.
As I lie my head on the dusty surface of this magnificent star and reminisce, I've found nothing to match your beauty and grace. My long journey resulted without fruition. You should’ve been my first and last precious discoveries, my only priceless jewels.
I’m beginning to wonder why I needed to travel to another planet to find wonders when you’ve always been my only golden planet floating and gravitating beneath my two blind eyes. I'm sorry for not being there for you all the time.
I wish I could fold time and space to kiss your lips for the last time.
If we won’t be dancing together, please keep my memories alive; but move on with your life.
I hope you’ll find a wonderful person, who’ll make your gracious heart beat faster, and make you a happy woman, a joy you deserve for eternity.
Your Love,
MidnightInk