How to have sex when you don’t want to

Breathe and then kiss him

Close your eyes and focus on the feeling of his lips

Do not flinch when his tongue invades your mouth

Calm yourself when his hand touches your thigh

Remind yourself that you love him

Think of how happy he will be if this works

Think of the peace you will feel when it is done

Do not let the guilt seep in, it will only make this harder

Tell him to go down on you

It will relax you and the rip will not be as severe

Brace yourself for the insertion

It will hurt

Tell him to go slowly

The sharp pain will dull with each thrust

Say a silent prayer that he will finish quickly

Do not let the guilt overwhelm you

If you cry, he will stop and you will only feel worse for it

Later, when you go to pee, do not wipe

You must pat yourself dry instead

It will still sting, but it will be short and minor compared

Hurry back before the self loathing sets in

When he asks if it hurt this time, do not lie

Hold him when he looks sad

Cradle his head in your arms

Together say a silent prayer that this will be the last time.