Inside of Me

A miniature version of myself dove into my third eye tonight. I could feel myself falling as I was surrounded in darkness, followed by streaks of white light. Falling fast the light flickered like a strobe lights from a rave.

Then I began to see colors. I watched as they changed from purple, blue, green yellow, and orange. Before finding myself cradled in red. Looking up I could see in the distance all of the colors I had just passed through. My heart was beating fast, as I laid still trying to adjust to my surroundings.

It was though each color was a part of me, a different level of my personality. I could even see a blurry image of myself moving within them. I was still laying there observing the moment, when I realized just how much of myself that I have been concealing from the my outside world and from others. I want to be who I am right now. The version of me that is within my current view! Only, I don’t know how. The words that I say hardly every express all of the ways I really feel. There is so much more to me than I can verbalize. Yet in here there are no words. I see only abstract imagery leaving me feeling so completely understood. This is a language of my own design. If I could communicate with others through images, then they understand. They would see that there is still so much more to me than what they’ve seen so far. I could show them who I really am.

Then suddenly all the redness surrounding me started to brighten and I felt myself being lifted. Only this time I was moving much slower than before. It was like being on a elevator slowly moving as I watched myself living within each color. Each becoming brighter and brighter as I passed. Orange... yellow... green... blue... purple... and then my miniature body was thrusted through a portal of gold coming from the top of my head landing on the ground in front of me.

I picked myself up and held her gently in the palm of my hand. And just as I lifted her close to my face to get a better view, I saw her smile back at me. Then right before my eyes she disappeared leaving me with everything I needed.