Two Paths

10 months ago now

she ended things between us.

She showed up to my dorm room and she had dyed her hair black.

But she said, while standing there avoiding eye contact, she said:

“Maybe we can see where we’re both at when I’m back. Because I want you in my life, even if it doesn’t feel that way right now.”

Am I an idiot to believe that? I want to believe her so badly.

Because now she is back but where am I?

I know where I am. I’m at home doing jack-shit as usual.

But where am I really and should I call?

She’s honest. Doesn’t waste her time with lies, so why would she lie about this?

I’ll call her soon.

There are two paths, and on one of them, we end up holding hands again like I have dreamed of for so long. The very existence of that path is enough for me.