thoughts of a fledgling professional

man i want stability

and attention from somebody

and i also wanna smoke something

and make all kindsa money

and i wanna drive my car real fast

and go places that excite me

and feel like pepole understand

the way i think about things

man i feel so outta place

but i know there’s nothin’ wrong with me

and i’m thinkin about outerspace

and not whats right in fronta me

and i feel like i’m ignored right now

and i do not like that feeling

i wish i had a cable

to connect our brains together

and form a perfect being

that could love itself forever

and there’d be no need for doubting

or silly little games

everything’d be perfect

individuality is pain

i wish that drugs were harmless

and we could do ’em as we please

without the social stigma

that comes from being freed

and i wish i could make music

like the people i admire

cuz the way i think their minds must work

puts them up above me so much higher

not to mention the attention

that comes with awesome skills,

yeah, that’s my intention.

cuz i wanna change the world

man my leg is bouncing

that crazy kinda energy

that kind that’s good for nothing

that comes out of anxiety

cuz i’m sitting in the same damn spot

my mind’s moving cuz my body can’t

thoughts and thoughts and thoughts and thoughts

make me feel like i’m affected

when i’m really not affected

it’s crazy what perception changes change about reality

man i wish i had a joint or a cigarette or something

but honestly thats just because i’d rather avoid this

and i can’t because i’m sat behind a desk

my job’s “important”

it really is though

i’m just cynical

man i want stability