Face in the Pillow

there it goes, it’s happening, i cannot stop it, the feeling is too strong, please no... No NO NO... no tears, he will beat me if i cry, i mustn’t let him see my wet eyes. no tears.

shhhh don’t make a sound, yes your heart is broken, the pain it hurts, why does my heart hurt, i don’t understand, it won’t stop, it’s crushed, how do i stop it?

the tears are falling one by one until they are a river streaming down the mounds next to my frown.

shhhh don’t make a sound, not a sniffle not a sigh, smoother your face in a pillow. not a sound. he will beat you. you will want to die.

how can i smile, how can i turn this frown upside down?

i thought i would find love. it’s nowhere around. only

hate and fear can be found. it’s all around. where

is LOVE? he says he loves me, then beats me.

he says he loves me then cheats on me

leaves me for the other girl. he says

he loves me then he shows his

horns! he says he loves me.

but they are only

LIES!

Athena