It’s Been Ages

I was gone for a long time.

(gone from a lot of things, lost and going nowhere)

Didn't really plan to be, but sometimes life just has a way of getting away from you.

(staying away, just out of reach)

I didn't realize I was depressed until someone told me.

(still haven't fixed it, trying my best)

Wasn't aware of the bridges burned until the ashes got shoveled into my mouth.

(too many times to count now, never stops hurting)

I lost the will to put words down on pages.

(struggle to do so even now, is good ever really good enough?)

Feeling like an imposter has become a second skin.

(self-loathing never really goes away, just fades sometimes)

But in all the madness of the current times, there's hope.

(small lights, flickering in dark)

Clinging and grabbing to it, to them, where I can.

(can't let go, won't let go)

I'm sorry.

(just words, but I'm trying)

I'm back.

(for now, who knows if it will last?)

It's been ages.

(far too long, far too long)