i'm sure you've noticed -- it's hard not to, i think -- that i don't capitalize my 'i' or my names or titles; that i don't capitalize anything but His title. His, being, of course, God.

there's a connection between my lack of capitalization and the

making sure to capitalize His name, only.

this connection, if you think about it a minute -- though maybe it's not as clearly laid out in my intent as it is in my head, i apologize if i'm being ignorant of this and it being, in actuality, obscure and then trying to have a conversation about it without stating it outright -- is because i feel the need to personally state to myself (preferably each day, a few times a day, though i've hardly had any time to write any poetry of late) that i am not Him and i will not take the capitalization. and, anyway, it's just easier to understand who i'm talking about, haha, given i hardly state anyone's name but His and my aunt's. i generally refer to the people i write about as 'you' or 'him' or 'her' or 'them', so i can't quite say it makes it any easier, except to know when i'm not talking about God and when i really am.

and, if you've read any of the two -- i guess it's two, given most of my scene dumps are private, but -- short stories i've written on here, umm... "Momma, why's the sky so blue?" and "for reasons unknown" (uncapitalized because it was a project title and i never changed it) then you'd, hopefully, understand that i do try my best to keep to the rules of grammar, spelling, typing, and storytelling when they apply to my stories.

but never my poems.

perhaps it's because my poems are on a more personal level, though i can hardly say that without feeling odd -- i put personal ideas, emotions, thoughts, and beliefs into my stories, yes, but with poems it is different. there are no characters to dig through for my history, or ideas, or hurts. there is no 'barrier' between you and i, aside from a screen or two, and maybe even one day a page, but i am me here, i am not characters, and i am not someone else. i am me. and that's important for me to know, to understand, and it's important to the way i write -- which is like this. i write poems here. i do not capitalize my 'i's in my poems -- hardly anything, aside from God and His titles -- and i write in italics, most of the time, and sometimes i SCREAM BECAUSE IT REALLY HURTS TO SAY THESE THINGS, and then sometimes i go like this, because the voices in my head are telling me something, and it's usually right. (that is, it's usually wrong, or off, or backwards.) and i'm not sure what else you'd like to know, but if there is, whether it's about the way i write, how i write, where/when i write, or just me in general, message me and i'll do my best to answer -- so long as it's not, like, when did you last turn on a lamp (for the record, that was 15 minutes ago) or what's your address (nopity nope nope nope), but i will try.