anticipation.

my chest tightens when you speak,

hands clench, teeth scraping.

I hold my breath, for I can't breathe.

I open my mouth, but no words escape.

& you look at me in anticipation;

eyes pleading, daring me to speak my mind.

My mind races, emotions crash over me--

I'm supposed to say something.

but like a tidal wave

we collide and it knocks me to my knees.

I'm drowning,

I struggle to stand, and am swept away.

the moment has passed.

i see it in your eyes

as pleading turns to frustration...&disappointment

you walk away, shaking your head,

and i can finally breathe.

~kdaughetee