My Angel Builds Mansions
I wish time would just slow down.
This day was never supposed to come. We weren't supposed to grow up this fast, because we could never be prepared for the things that happen next. Life was so much easier when all of us were younger and you were too. Life was never easy on you. You had that major accident too early in your life. But you powered through it, and you got better. You were never back to one hundred percent, but you tried your hardest to get as close as you could get. You did it for your wife, you did it for your kids, and you did it for us. It wasn't your time to go then, but it is now. Your fighting days are over, and all your strength has just been erased from you. I wish time would just slow down to the point where it would start to reverse; reverse and go back to those days when everything was good and we were all young. You always used to talk about the good old days, and we always thought that they were long long ago, not realizing how close they actually were.
I wish I could spend one more day with you.
One more sleepover, one more day helping you get the mail before work, one more Sunday morning with you in church. One more cookie that you would claim was a reject, one more game of Checkers, one more song that we would sing together, one more solution to all the problems that seemed to appear in my life. One more driving lesson, one more swimming lesson, one more holiday get together, one more song on the accordian, one more kiss goodbye. One more "hey doll," one more "I love you," one more Happy Birthday voicemail. And then with all of this colleciton of one mores, together we could have another whole lifetime of memories, that way I would never have to truly say goodbye.
I wish you didn't have to go.
I know that every day is a blessing. I know that there were times that we could have lost you years ago, and that these extra years with you have been a gift. I know that it's the circle of life, and I know that you're going somewhere better. I know that you'll see Jesus, and I know you'll be able to walk again. I know you'll still love me, and I know I'll never forget you. I know that you would love to stay, but I also know that you're ready to go. And even after knowing all of this, it doesn't make this any easier. We knew this day was coming, but it doesn't mean we wanted it too. I want to be selfish, and I want to keep you for as long as I can. But that's not how life works. And while you may not be here physically, I know that you'll always be with me, and that you'll always be watching over me making sure that I'm safe. And that even though you're not here, you're never truly gone.
I wish I didn't have to say goodbye.
So I won't. We'll say "until we meet again." Because we will see each other again. So... until we meet again Allen. Save me a spot next to you, friend. Go be one of Heaven's builders, and prepare the mansions for all who come next.
I love you grandpa. Always will.