I fear you.

-Rei

Love. Why does it elude me?

I’ve written poem and song about you,

Although I have yet to understand you.

I still can’t bring myself to say those 3 words.

Something so simple and yet powerful,

It terrifies me; yet I still reach for it.

Love. Is this what it feels like?

Warm, bittersweet, and fluttering.

Or is this again co-dependency?

I don’t yet understand what this emotion is.

I’ve heard and read it, even been confessed to,

Yet still not knowing what it is.

Love. Can I trust someone that much?

To know my trauma and my true self,

Wouldn’t that be too much for anyone..

All I’ve ever told those 3 words, are gone.

Either by time or their own hands.

I am cursed to never know love without pain.

Love. I fear you.