a letter I will never send

I never conceived how important you would become to me. It seemed stupid, seeing we spent time together in the womb; how could I not love my twin sister? How could she not become my best friend, my closest confidant in life? It took for great loss, for heartbreak and sorrow and grief, for us to truly become pulled together. 

My sister, my best friend, do you know how it hurts when you say you don't like yourself? that you abhor the legs that hold you up, that walk you to class? That you don't like the stomach that will one day hold my niece or nephew? That you don't like the eyes that stare into mine and the face that smiles when we're together?

My darling sister, you are the light of my life; you bring importance back to it. I want to shower you in love and affection, the same types that you show me. Going to different colleges in different states is difficult, but it just makes my heart swell more and more every time I get to see you. Not a day goes by that I am not proud of you. 

Never forget me. Never forget my heart and our friendship. No matter what happens down the road, I believe in you, in your strength, and your intelligence.