the golden affair

i hate that i pretend to hate you

but i'm tempted every day

on waters so inviting

it's hard to stay away

i use my words as an alibi

tell my friends i'm out for a run

you're a drug that i can't shake

i refuse to think you're the one

i hate that everybody wants you

and that i didn't fall for someone else

don't think i'll ever stop

because for you i would ruin myself