You

You drown the silence

With your music

And movies

Simultaneously playing

Until my head is spinning

And I forget who I am

Maybe this drink

Will help the noise

Maybe this edible?

Nothing helps

I lose me

When I'm with you

And some days

I am grateful

For that

But

When I want to live

Instead of hide

I can't be with you

You dissolve life

Into overindulgence

You beat balance

With a stick name excess

And I sink

When I'm there

And my heart

Cries out

I love you

While my brain

Begs me to leave

And now it's quiet

And I cozy up

Under my blanket of sadness

And sip

My tea of solitude

And sigh

The color of pain

As I pick up the pieces

Of my broken heart

And begin

To puzzle them together

Again