aches with amorous love

I saw you last night. I saw you when

reality fades and the truth escapes

I saw you in my dream, I saw your memory.

you were wearing a grey suit and tie. when I saw, you, I remembered how much I missed you. your black hair, your smile, your laugh. our souls just naturally fit, two outcasts who gave what each other needed. we walked through the crowd, through this dream world, and I held onto your arm, I put my head on your shoulder, and I finally felt

complete.

and I thought about how I should have kissed you that day at the park. I should have told you

I loved you.

and when I when I woke up from my dream, I picked up my phone

and drafted you a text. And then I remembered,

I remembered that you left me

right when I needed you the most.

Then we wrote letters

and I fell for you even more.

You were my anchor.

but when I finally saw you

you were different.

You didn't ask about me

and you lied, even when it was obvious.

You weren't right in the head.

Maybe it was just me, but to be safe I broke it off.

I saw you last night. I saw you when I really needed someone. I needed someone to hold, someone to love, someone to laugh with, someone to share my hopes and fears with.

I miss you, but I don't want to see you.