lol i tried

she dyed her ginger hair

the brownish orange

bleached and dyed

now it's blue

or is it green?

it's been a while since i've seen her

last time i saw her

we frolicked in her grandmothers backyard

and layed on her mattress

and fought over the blanket

i counted each freckle

that dusted her cheeks

with a peaceful serentity

and worshipped her thighs

with quiet adoration

when we talk

i choke down

declarations of love

because they only make the

sting in my chest

hurt worse

and of course,

i want to see her

i miss her

like half my lung is missing

it's hard to breathe

she's a part of me

she's burrowed herself

deeply into my soul

and life without her

is bleak

but i must stay strong

because the joy i get

from the notion of future

a future where we can see eachother

every day

that joy

that giddy excitement

it keeps me going

and i can't let

my bitterness

at the distance between us now

break the possibility of greatness

and the love we share between us

because love is nothing

if not brittle