not to blame

it's not your fault that i have abandonment issues

because my father left before i was born, to start a new

family that i would not be welcomed to be apart of.

so im sorry if i get sad when you leave or get

nervous when you dont talk to me for few days

because i'll start to think you dont want to stay, after all

what man would stay if my own father wouldnt?

please dont think it's your fault that i have trust

issues because the lover that came before you laid his

head on my chest and listened to me talk about how afraid

i was of being left broken hearted my a man once again, all

while he was deciding that i was pretty enough to fuck

but not good enough to mean it when he said he

loved me too.

i wouldnt want you to think it's your fault

that i cry when youre upset with me or silent

for too long because i start to over think and tell

myself that youre just going to fade away when things

get difficult because im too much to handle

too sarcastic, too much attitude, too sensitive