Sell yourself
Knowing we have had a similar background, I am wondering if you have gone to therapy and if so what did you discover about yourself. If you have not, I will fill you in on an aha moment I had in therapy.
After pointing out how a dysfunctional family (abusive parents) will damage us in immeasurable ways, he explained how we often develop ourselves in other areas as compensation. He asked me questions like,
Are you a good friend?
How have you helped your friends?
Do you like animals?
Are you a good employee?
Are you a good mother/sibling?
And when he kept asking me questions, I answered them realizing I had been feeling so bad about myself, I forgot how much I have to offer. So if sharing motivation about your personal life experiences is not coming, ask yourself some questions.
Maybe you are selling yourself short, blocked because you don't feel your self worth.
What about all the people you motivate here on Prose with your writing and kind comments? I know you are a good person, so sell yourself with your words. You got this.