self
these days,
i'm okay.
the world is brighter.
the sunset holds untold wonders.
i sleep soundly,
and my dreams are random and meaningless,
just the way i like them.
food no longer tastes like dust,
i savor every calorie
without wanting to spit them back out.
these days, i'm okay.
and i hate it.
i don't know who i am
without dark skies and fuzzy vision.
i don't know who i am
without nightmares lurking under my eyelids.
i
don't
know
who i am without my demons,
they comfort me
in knowing that, through the pain,
i will always know who i am.
i can be Depressed.
i can be Anxiety.
i can be Ugly.
these are things i know how to be.
but now my demons are gone,
leaving me with Okay.
and i miss them.
i miss the insults whispered in my ear
and the lies and the pain.
and i want them back,
because my demons comfort me.
and i don't know who i am
without a devil on both shoulders.