Prostitution for Dummies -or- How I Can’t Even Sell Myself Correctly
Once
upon
a
time
I tried to
sell
myself
for
money
and by this
I mean
get
paid
for
sex
my
14
th
lover
was
an
old
man
I
was
so
disgusted
when he
said
I can’t
believe
I’m ready
to
go
again
and I laid
there
or
maybe
I
straddled
him
honestly
I don’t
remember
got all
those
tests
after
like I dodged
a
bullet
cause I felt
shot
through
the heart
if your vagina
leads
to your
love
like a fatally
eclipsed
ring
finger
hey,
I got one of those.
too.
just a body
going
through
the motions
I didn’t
even
have
the
energy
to
fake
payment
I lied about this
for the
longest
time
longer
than
a climax
but not
long
enough
for
shame
name of the game?
He was a renowned
doctor
here to give a speech
married
three kids
and I was the
vessel
he poured
his own
insecurities
into.
I ran.
I ran so fast the
chef
of the same
hotel
said
didn’t I just see you?
and he woo
d
me
bought me
black and milds
and I think I
fucked
him
too
#13
count it
though I don’t
remember
he fed me
sushi
too scared to
admit
I’d rather die
than eat
fish
but
so scared
I had no voice
left
except the
whine
except the
dine
and
I did not take
the money
laid out
on the
table
thank you
for your
services
could have paid for
all
those
tests
to tell me
that even as I ruined
myself
I was
at
least
still
pure
as
the
driven
snow
as
pure
as I’ve
ever
known
the next man
I fuck
is
#
17
I don’t count the ladies
like we don’t count
the baby
daddy
s
once I said
I’d
keep it to ten
then I fucked
your
best
friend
and now I don’t know
should I stay
should I
go
wear that
scarlet
letter
and it would make more sense
if I had taken those
cents
but even whores
know
they
know
better