no daddy, all issues

he didn't know when he left me

that his abandonment would

create heartache that would last

a lifetime

a void unable to be filled

but that won't stop me from

trying, so i call my lover

daddy and hope he will

love me enough to stay

but how could you ever get

a man to love you enough to stay

when you're own father didn't

find it in himself?

my consciousness is always louder

than i'd like her to be

when i allow myself to hurt

i admit that it eats me up

because in my twenty-two years

of life, he didn't care enough

to watch me grow and instead he

turned me into a girl with

daddy issues

and that is not fair

because i deserve a dad

i deserved to go to the daddy-daughter

dances that my friends went to with their own

i deserved to be shown what real love from

a man looks like

i deserve to have a dad to show me what's

wrong with my car when it's making a weird sound

what i don't deserve is to feel like

less of a person because one of the people

who gave me life never cared enough

about me

on nights like this, i cry

and i hope for a day

that my heart won't ache

this way, for him